In the past few minutes I’ve cried and done a lot of thinking. I know how that sounds, but don’t worry, I haven’t been crying for me. In actuality, I’ve been crying because of a guy who’s in a lot of pain.
He is not a person I know personally. He is someone who feels as if his heart has been broken, and as if he can’t hold on anymore. I know this doesn’t sound like much to cry about from a secondary view, but I haven’t been so moved in quite some time. I’ve felt this utter sadness Jeremy is feeling now, and when he was describing it to me, I couldn’t help it; the tears started to fall.
I felt so helpless, like I needed to give him a hug, which of course I couldn’t do, so I lied here, crying for the heartbreak of some boy.
In the instance, I felt like I needed to pray for him, and I did.
I feel so unable, and powerless with things like this. It isn’t Life but the happenstances that corrupt her, at least that’s what I said on my earlier blog post on my tumblr. I think it’s true though. Life is really beyond beautiful. All this pain that exists…it shouldn’t, you know?
It all made me think about angels, and about a many number of other things, too…
I wrote a poem inspired by Jeremy and the voice of Steven Tyler. I want to share it now with everyone:
“My tears fall for a broken heart,
and for a boy who feels it’s all over.
He says he’s lost his princess,
and he can’t take it any longer.
I want to wrap him in my wings,
and tell him I’m from Heaven,
and everything will be alright.
This boy tells me how he’s crying,
and I send a secret prayer.
Jeremy, the angels are on your side.
Yours, and every other heart,
falling on this night.
I understand your pain too well.
But all of this will be alright.
My tears fall for a sad boy’s
desperation
and for the irreversibility
of the mood swings of the human heart.
I wish I knew just how to tell you
to offer up your pain.
If I was Jessica,
I could glamour this away.
If this is all I can do for you and every other broken heart,
we’ll let our tears fall together, okay?”
YEAH, trubies, there’s some references in there. But it’s how I really feel inside my heart right now. If I could, I would go to every person who feels broken on this night, and hold them.
I’m not trying to come off love and light-like, but these are my honest feelings. The song I’ve posted is “Love Lives” and it is sang by Steven Tyler. I love this song as I feel as if the lyrics capture these moments perfectly. I’d like to share the lyrics too:
“Love Lives”
I looked at you, you looked at me,
I knew it then, but you couldn’t see it,
And now you’ve come around.
I walk away, you stay behind,
But I’ve got the memories to remind me,
Of how you used to…
Hold me so tight, be by my side,
And make it alright…
Love gives, and love takes,
Yeah it’ll keep you up in the middle of night
And catch you when you’re falling
Love is, what love makes,
If you let it go it’ll always come back,
When it hears you calling,
LOVE LIVES…
I know you’re there, you always were,
There’ll be an end to all this hurting,
But how many tears will fall?
Before you’re back into my arms
So I can tell you I’ve been dying
Without you…
Too many nights, are passing us by,
But we’ll make it by, yeah..
Love gives, and love takes,
Yeah it’ll keep you up in the middle of night
And catch you when you’re falling
Love is, what love makes,
If you let it go it’ll always come back,
When it hears you calling.
Love lifts you up and lets you fly
And makes you think you’ll never die,
And it’s just like livin’ in heaven
And you’ll never ever wanna come down…
‘Cause love is, what love makes,
And true love, never breaks.
‘Cause Love gives, and love takes,
It’ll keep you up in the middle of night,
And catch you when you’re falling
Love is, what love makes,
If you let it go it’ll always come back,
When it hears you…
Love gives, and love takes,
Yeah it’ll keep you up in the middle of night.
And catch you when you’re falling
Love is, what love makes,
Yeah if you let it go it’ll always come back,
When it hears you calling,
LOVE LIVES…
LOVE LIVES…”
It’s just, sometimes I will look around, and feel so disgusted with what I see. I’ll look up to the Father and ask him why I’m here. I mean, seriously. Why? Because in those moments it seems as if people are so ugly in their hearts, that I don’t think I should save them. That I don’t think they deserve to be saved. I will incredulously ask God, ‘This race is what tore brethren apart?’
Yet at other times I’ll look at people and I’ll see Jeremy; and I’ll feel so moved and touched, that I want to beg God to spare those sufferers. It is also at times like this that I’ll realize that that is why we’re here. For these people, to act as messengers to them, and have God speak to them through us, and tell these people that everything will be okay.
I know this was really random, but I felt touched, like I said, and felt like this needed to be shared.
Don’t get used to this love-like view! (Aha)
-MAL
